i remember when

i remember when

you stared at me

uncontrollably

and when

my words

made you wet

even

when

i was silent.

i soaked it all up

like a deserted

sponge

longing for

saturation.

dripping

down your

inner thighs,

i licked it

all up,

better than

any dessert

and any

drug,

your juices

possessed me;

i became addicted.

warm

sugary

cinnamon butter,

sugar cane juice

i squeezed all

the love i could,

consuming

you,

but it was

always one way;

i took,

you gave,

you loved,

i played.

i’m sorry.

-JDR-

love needs tears and i can’t cry anymore

every tear i’ve

shed for the

previous

loves

prevents me

from

pursuing you.

make no mistake,

all pure love

requires buckets

and buckets

of joyous and sad

tears

but i have no more

to offer,

so, please…

go find that

one with

the tallest water towers;

you deserve all the tears this world can hold.

-JDR-

spent and antiquated

i’ve spent it all –

more than a

few times;

i’ve spent

the money

the women

the memories

the cells

the love

the hope

the words

the bottles,

so many bottles.

i’m on empty

desperate to refuel

so

i

can

do

it

all

over

again,

but i’m afraid,

this time around,

they don’t manufacture

my type of energy anymore.

i’ve used up all

my chances,

and these fumes

will

soon

be

exhausted.

-JDR-

this one

can you sense that

gut feeling

that your catching

feelings?

like kidney stones

developing

in all the wrong organs,

your world is spinning

in the wrong direction,

thoughts are as mysterious

as Banksy,

lasers aren’t breaking

this up,

i can’t fuck my way

out of this one,

i can’t drink my way

out of this one,

i can’t smoke my way

out of this one,

i can’t pop one

to get out

of the way

of this one,

so i take you

head on,

with head

and all,

so many innocents,

so many casualties,

and yet,

here we are,

taking our war

and suffering

to other unsuspecting

victims

with no end

in sight.

-JDR-

set deep in the eyes

it’s when

its

in the eyes

when you know

you’ve been

summoned by the

crows

that swoop in

and dive

for

the bait

that is your heart;

hooked, set,

reeled in,

sliced, chopped,

marinated

and then used

to

catch

a

bigger

fish.

it’s all in the eyes;

everything

resides

in

the

eyes.

(blink)

-JDR-

leaning

i picked her up

at the travelling

circus

after-party

(yeah, there is such a thing),

 

lines off the

funny mirrors

 

carnie threesomes

 

cotton candy bushes

 

fried goods

 

we’re all part of the session

where we learned a valuable

 

lesson

 

that some things

shouldn’t be mixed

 

like whips, tigers,

and orgies

 

nor can they be won

by tossing

oversized balls

into undersized

jugs

 

or aiming syrup

at the

clown’s mouth,

 

testing my strength

consuming the weight

 

flopping around in the cage

 

down and out

and over the hill

 

put out to pasture

put out to pasture.

 

-JDR-

drying up

laying here

in a sheetless bed

wanting to speak

with you

about my contempt

for everyone

and everything,

 

sun beaming

through the

blunt burned holed

tan

colored curtains,

 

dried red cough syrup

crusted on my beard

and pillow

and face mask,

 

maybe it’s the cheap wine

and unfiltered smokes,

 

or the three kids and four dogs

balanced on the speeding

motorbike

 

that have led me to this point.

 

but i’m starving for your

attention and approval

 

so while i wait for a sign,

not just your sexy

glances and smiles,

 

I’ll run to the local

convenience store

for some instant noodles

and a boiled egg

 

and more cheap wine.

 

-JDR-